i AM NOt ENJOYiNG tHiS LiFESTYLE. i DON't WANt tO tURN BLiND, DEAtH , OR EVEN COME OUt tO HAVE  REtARDAtiON. MY SiStER HAD JUSt PASS AWAY FROM A SiCKNESS tHAt i CANt PRONOUNCE. AND iF i HAD A CHANCE tO LEAVE i WOULD tHiS iS KiLLiNG ME SLOWLY.WELL i HAVE tO GEt BACK tO WORK.